September 25th, 2011 .
A colleague and long-time friend of mine is a Reiki Master. Reiki is a gentle ancient energy healing modality. So gentle that it is elusive at times. Some feel a warm sensation in their body during a session. Some feel the practitioner’s hands very warm. It all feels pleasant. Healing, some would say. I have never questioned what healing is or means. Seems obvious. Healing means you feel better.
I had a distant Reiki session with my friend, which is exactly what it sounds like. She was miles away from me during the session. She also has the gift of seeing visions. I know. For that skeptic voice that may have just popped up, stay with me.
This was actually my second distant Reiki session. My first one, I fell into a pretty deep sleep. What I thought was interesting was after a half hour, I woke up, turned over, and fell back into a deep sleep. The session is usually an hour long and half way through, in a regular office session, one turns over. When my session was over, I felt relaxed and peaceful.
She emailed to me what she saw, which also is not typical for a session but typical for a session with her. She told me of the spirit entities surrounding me, placing healing hands on me. And then went into more detail personal to me.
occurred again the second time, only this time I did not fall asleep. I was fidgety. Not really into it at all. I actually got up, did some yoga, washed some dishes, and made my lunch in the last half hour of the session that seemed to go on forever. There was nothing healing I felt from it. But what she saw was mind blowing. It made me wonder, “What is healing?” Because I didn’t feel any better. In fact I felt nothing except maybe agitated that I didn’t have an experience.
So we talked about it. I love her to pieces for her honesty. She says she questions all the time if what she sees is her imagination, or comes from an unconscious motivation to want this for her client. I know the feeling. I get these messages sometimes to during a massage or reiki session that I give. In school, we were taught to offer what we see/feel/hear/intuit without attachment, to the client; for the client to do whatever they want with the information. It may be information that means nothing to us, but could be perfectly understandable and meaningful to them. Or, it could mean nothing to either of us and I get to sound like a wacko. It’s the chance we take.
Many bodywork practitioners set the intention to be the vehicle for healing, for the person we are holding. And when we become that, we sometimes get a message. Sometimes people tell me they feel a sort of healing. Many times, when I set the intention to move my own mind aside, sort of empty my mind and just hold a clients head, a client will report to me that something changed for them. One client told me that when I held his head, he felt as though whatever it was that he was holding onto or that held him to a cigarette addiction, seemed to drain away. He told me he had quit for the most part, but it was that end-of-the-day cigarette he couldn’t let go of. He didn’t come for a massage for that reason, so it was particularly striking to him.
Another client commented that when I held his head during a session, he seemed to connect to a deeply calmer place inside himself, different from the rest of the massage.
Most times, clients don’t report feeling anything about the head-holding piece of their session. I just know and trust it is a good thing to do.
I know bodywork is healing, especially massage because one can physically feel muscles release tension. But there’s also a process to healing, not necessarily felt, where we we have to take a leap of faith.
That kind of healing I think of like a cold running its course, or something more painful like recovering from hip surgery. It takes time. We might not feel better while our body is healing, but we know our body is working on it. Taking extra vitamin C and immune-building supplements for the cold, doing physical therapy for the hip–these are external healing modalities we trust help the process of healing.
With energy healing modalities like rieki, polarity and acupuncture, the healing is not always immediate or noticeable. When it doesn’t seem to be working–meaning I don’t feel any better, I have to remind myself that healing is a process, and trust it.